In my recent video, I shared the 2019 incident where Sabazius, the U.S. National Grand Master of OTO, pressured Joseph Thibes to remove IAO131 as a moderator of the Facebook Thelema group—and what happened when I spoke out. This wasn’t just drama. It was textbook BITE model behavior—a framework used to identify high-control groups: Behavior…
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Speak Up, Get CRUSHED: How OTO Handles Dissent
Speak Up, Get Crushed How Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.) Handles Dissent Healthy leadership standards in spiritual communities are a matter of public interest. My goal is to spark constructive reform and protect current and future members of OTO. Everything in this video is my opinion, based on first‐hand observations, public statements, and written records I…
When the leaders are the dangerous ones
I used to dismiss outspoken critics of OTO as egotistical or mentally unwell. I thought, “They’re just bitter.” But what I see now is that, even if that’s true in some cases, the people running the organization are often just as egotistical and unwell—only they’re in positions of power. And worse: the system protects them….
When the leaders in OTO are the most unstable ones
When the Leaders in O.T.O. are the Most Unstable Ones Healthy leadership standards in spiritual communities are a matter of public interest. My goal is to spark constructive reform and protect current and future members of OTO. Everything in this video is my opinion, based on first‐hand observations, public statements, and written records I possess….
Leaving the temple. Lighting the field.
Three texts. One arc. What began as rupture became signal. What began as a ritual became a transmission. What began as silence became a new way of speaking. This bundle isn’t about belief. It’s about coherence, embodiment, and exit. 🜂 The Arc of Transmission is now live: Donwload Here
Spiritual control and the Severance effect
Spiritual Control and the Severance Effect When You Need Permission to Be Friends If you’ve ever watched Severance, you know Milchick. He’s not a villain in the cartoon sense. He smiles. He praises. He throws waffle parties. And he always reminds you: “You’re doing great.” Until you’re not. And then suddenly, he’s there—to correct, to…
When “Letting Go” Becomes a Weapon
Since I began speaking publicly about why I left OTO, I’ve seen a familiar tactic surface again and again: the spiritualized justification of abuse. It doesn’t always look like outright denial. Sometimes it shows up in language that pretends to be enlightened: “I hope you feel better soon.” “It must be so painful not to…
My “master plan” is what it’s always been: call out abuse
OTO leadership is paying to surveil my Patreon, hoping to figure out my next move. So let me save them the trouble: My next move is the same as my last one: to keep saying publicly what I’ve said privately inside OTO for at least the past 7 years. • The lack of accountability •…
They Called It Psychosis
One of the malicious lies OTO leadership is circulating right now, in an attempt to discredit me, is that I had a complete personality change in the months leading up to my resignation. Their explanation? Spiritual psychosis. Let’s be clear: this is a smear. It’s a textbook tactic used by high-control groups when someone leaves…
When it’s no longer safe to have a self
When It’s No Longer Safe to Have a Self There’s a lot of mystification in modern spirituality around the idea of the “self.” People say things like “the self is an illusion” or they talk about “my true self” or “my authentic self”. And sometimes that language points to something real. But sometimes it’s just…