{"id":2128,"date":"2025-06-11T11:00:00","date_gmt":"2025-06-11T18:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/?p=2128"},"modified":"2025-07-04T09:29:03","modified_gmt":"2025-07-04T16:29:03","slug":"they-called-it-psychosis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/they-called-it-psychosis\/","title":{"rendered":"They Called It Psychosis"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

<\/a>One of the malicious lies OTO leadership is circulating right now, in an attempt to discredit me, is that I had a complete personality change in the months leading up to my resignation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Their explanation? Spiritual psychosis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Let\u2019s be clear: this is a smear. It\u2019s a textbook tactic used by high-control groups when someone leaves and tells the truth. If they can\u2019t refute the message, they pathologize the messenger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

They know my words are landing\u2014with people inside and outside the Order. They know I was seen as stable, creative, and trustworthy for over a decade. So now they need a story to explain the fact that someone like that would leave.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And here’s the truth: I did change.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not in the way they say\u2014but in a way that made it inevitable that I\u2019d walk away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because at a certain point, I made the conscious decision to take my own side.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 I stopped ignoring what I already knew.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 I stopped rationalizing betrayal as the cost of \u201cfraternity.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 I stopped tolerating loyalty tests disguised as leadership.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And most importantly\u2014I stopped betraying myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yes, I updated my wardrobe. Yes, I changed how I delivered rituals and lectures. I started expressing myself in ways that felt true, embodied, alive. I got louder, brighter, and sharper.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And for the first time in years, the lodge felt electric. We were packing the house. People were excited to initiate again. There was momentum, joy, and magick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But to those clinging to the Order\u2019s decaying authority structures, that was terrifying.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So now, in hindsight, I\u2019m being accused of \u201cspiritual psychosis.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 For wearing scarves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 For experimenting with expression.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2022 For telling the truth they couldn\u2019t control.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If you want to know who\u2019s really envious in this story, just look at who\u2019s still talking about me and spying on me<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

One of the malicious lies OTO leadership is circulating right now, in an attempt to discredit me, is that I had a complete personality change in the months leading up to my resignation. Their explanation? Spiritual psychosis. Let\u2019s be clear: this is a smear. It\u2019s a textbook tactic used by high-control groups when someone leaves…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[488],"class_list":["post-2128","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-oto-high-control-group-2"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2128","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2128"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2128\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2129,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2128\/revisions\/2129"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2128"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2128"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lapis-mercurii.org\/lvx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2128"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}