Leaving a spiritual system—especially one you poured your time, emotional energy, and power into—isn’t the end of the road. It’s the beginning of something harder, weirder, and far more honest: finding your way without the scaffolding of someone else’s map.
I’m not building a rival “order,” and I’m not interested in better bureaucracy. I’d like to offer something different: A space for people who are waking up, not just to the flaws in an old system, but to the need for something rooted in truth, safety, and personal sovereignty.
(These were, after all, the principles guiding my leadership in OTO.)
I don’t believe power has to come at the expense of your integrity—whether through unethical behavior or seeking proximity to people in robes.
I don’t believe an experience of sacredness is to be found through hollow theater.
I don’t believe leadership means control.
And I don’t believe you need to choose between belonging and being yourself.
I’m interested in creating:
- Conversations worth having
- Tools that help people reconnect with their core
- Structures that don’t require self-erasure to participate in
If you’re also rebuilding after something that failed you—if you’re still recovering from the confusion, the gaslighting, and the heartbreak of watching something you once loved turn into something else—I want you to know:
- You’re not alone
- You’re not broken
- You are stepping into the space where selfhood begins.
More soon…