Exploring topics related to personal transformation, power, and spiritual ethics, drawing from Thelema, western esotericism, and philosophy.
Three texts. One arc. What began as rupture became signal. What began as a ritual became a transmission. What began as silence became a new way of speaking. This bundle isn’t about belief. It’s about coherence, embodiment, and exit. 🜂 The Arc of Transmission is now live: Donwload Here
Since I began speaking publicly about why I left OTO, I’ve seen a familiar tactic surface again and again: the spiritualized justification of abuse. It doesn’t always look like outright denial. Sometimes it shows up in language that pretends to be enlightened: “I hope you feel better soon.” “It must be so painful not to…
OTO leadership is paying to surveil my Patreon, hoping to figure out my next move. So let me save them the trouble: My next move is the same as my last one: to keep saying publicly what I’ve said privately inside OTO for at least the past 7 years. • The lack of accountability •…
One of the malicious lies OTO leadership is circulating right now, in an attempt to discredit me, is that I had a complete personality change in the months leading up to my resignation. Their explanation? Spiritual psychosis. Let’s be clear: this is a smear. It’s a textbook tactic used by high-control groups when someone leaves…
So the guy who wrote a memo about my private spiritual work—used by the Grand Master to attack my character—just paid to read more. Yes. He’s now paying me for early access to the content that’s apparently so dangerous it needed a leadership-level smear campaign. At this point, I feel like I’m running an OnlyFans…
There’s always someone who says, “Well, I managed to change things. You must’ve just gone about it the wrong way.” As if the issue was tone. Or strategy. Or not being polite enough in the face of systemic dysfunction. “Maybe your ideas just weren’t good enough. “ “Did you try asking the right person? “…
It’s strange, isn’t it? Earlier today, someone wrote a frustrated post on the Thelema Facebook group after leaving, and they were labeled unhinged and unsafe. But I spent 11 years calmly building events, mentoring officers, and trying to improve the system—and now that I’ve spoken out with clarity and evidence, I’m likely on a secret…
Leaving a spiritual system—especially one you poured your time, emotional energy, and power into—isn’t the end of the road. It’s the beginning of something harder, weirder, and far more honest: finding your way without the scaffolding of someone else’s map. I’m not building a rival “order,” and I’m not interested in better bureaucracy. I’d like…
Over the past few days, I’ve seen some people try to explain my resignation as just another case of burnout—like it’s all part of some natural cycle. But behind that tidy narrative is a system trying to pass off its dysfunction as inevitability, and its bad choices as “just the way of the world.” Let’s…
It’s been interesting to see how many current Order members—some of them longtime initiates—have reached out to thank me for saying what they’ve been thinking for years. People are tired of watching dysfunction and self-serving decisions framed as the way of the world by people who aren’t even rational let alone world-wise. Also, to the…