Exploring topics related to personal transformation, power, and spiritual ethics, drawing from Thelema, western esotericism, and philosophy.
This summer, I’ve put out a lot of content about Ordo Templi Orientis. I’ve described how it promotes unstable leaders, protects high-degree abusers, spies on its members, punishes criticism, and sculpts people into shapes fundamentally at odds with the Law of Thelema. The reactions have been intense: gratitude from those relieved to hear their experiences…
Once you see these patterns, you can refuse to let them define you. You can step out of the war—and into the myth of becoming sovereign, visible, virtuous, and free.
What makes a spiritual community worthy of your life? The answer isn’t in the group’s mission statement or bylaws. And believe it or not, it’s not found simply in doing ritual together or holding potlucks. It’s revealed by the patterns of behavior in the community—and whether those patterns lead to positive transformation over time or…
Not all initiations begin with candles and blindfolds. Some begin in silence. Some begin with panic. Some begin the moment you stop pretending. Many people see leaving a high-control group like O.T.O. as a collapse—even a failure—especially if you leave angry. But what if it’s something else entirely? The Four Powers of the Sphinx—To Know,…
Since I began criticizing OTO publicly, nearly all the pushback has been personal attacks. There have been no rebuttals, no responses to the substance of my arguments. Just insults. One person even said I was right—and then launched into a character attack, apparently not bright enough to realize they were making my point for me….
The Electoral College of U.S. Grand Lodge plays a critical role in overseeing local bodies but rarely faces meaningful public scrutiny. This Sunday, July 27, at 2:30 pm at NOTOCON, they will host their “Meet and Greet” session—an event framed as an opportunity for dialogue, but which more often serves as transparency theater. Most attendees…
When I released They’re Watching You, my video on information control in O.T.O., I didn’t expect the flood of confirmation that followed. People—some still in the Order, others long gone—had eerily similar stories. Many had never spoken up before. Some thought they were imagining things. They weren’t. This post dives into one pattern I’ve since…
O.T.O. describes itself as a place of freedom. Members are told time and again that there are no established dogmas, no official theology of Thelema, and no fixed interpretation of the Gnostic Mass. We’re encouraged to think for ourselves, explore deeply, and engage in open inquiry. But in practice, that’s not how it works. Beneath…
In my recent video, I shared the 2019 incident where Sabazius, the U.S. National Grand Master of OTO, pressured Joseph Thibes to remove IAO131 as a moderator of the Facebook Thelema group—and what happened when I spoke out. This wasn’t just drama. It was textbook BITE model behavior—a framework used to identify high-control groups: Behavior…
I used to dismiss outspoken critics of OTO as egotistical or mentally unwell. I thought, “They’re just bitter.” But what I see now is that, even if that’s true in some cases, the people running the organization are often just as egotistical and unwell—only they’re in positions of power. And worse: the system protects them….