After eleven years of sincere membership and service—including my recent role as Master of Horizon Lodge—I have formally resigned from Ordo Templi Orientis.
This is not a decision I made lightly. I invested years of study, leadership, initiation work, and creative output into the Order because I believed in its stated ideals: freedom of will, spiritual integrity, and the transformative power of ritual and community.
Over time, however, I experienced patterns I could no longer ignore. In my view, dissent was quietly discouraged, rules seemed to be applied selectively, and loyalty to hierarchy often outweighed open accountability. The cumulative effect felt like an erosion of individual voice.
I followed every official procedure available to raise concerns. I submitted documentation. I sought resolution through the appropriate channels. The answers I received convinced me that the existing structure is working as designed—and that what it chiefly protects is the institution itself, not its members or its mission.
To those I’ve taught, initiated, or supported over the years: I still believe in your capacity to seek and create the real. Thelema remains a beautiful, living current. But O.T.O. is no longer the vessel I trust to carry it forward.