OTO leadership is paying to surveil my Patreon, hoping to figure out my next move. So let me save them the trouble:
My next move is the same as my last one: to keep saying publicly what I’ve said privately inside OTO for at least the past 7 years.
• The lack of accountability
• The emotional volatility of upper leadership
• The surveillance of members and overreach into their private lives
• The triangulation, the secrecy, the gaslighting
None of this is news to long-time members. In fact, many upper-degree initiates have agreed with me. They only had one condition:
Don’t say it in public.
As long as I kept the secret, I was a person of integrity. The moment I started speaking up, I became “theatrical.” “Mentally unstable.” “Spiritually psychotic.”
That’s not a rebuttal; that’s an institutional pattern.
They don’t see surveillance and control as problems. They see them as necessary.
If I didn’t want retaliation, I shouldn’t have offended the wrong people.
If I wanted change, I should’ve sat at my desk, raised my hand, and asked permission.
The mature response to abuse is not to expose the abuse publicly. It’s to create a form or a workshop.
But here’s the real difference:
They think OTO’s dysfunction is a “work in progress.” I see it as a high-control group—one that no self-respecting spiritual seeker should remain part of.
This is also why I don’t name names. Outside the Order, no one knows who these people are. But inside the Order?
Everyone already knows.
What I’m saying isn’t news to OTO’s leadership. It’s familiar. That’s why they attack my character—because they can’t attack the facts.
So go ahead. By all means, keep spying. Keep paying to spy.
I’ve got nothing to hide.
But you do