Since I began criticizing OTO publicly, nearly all the pushback has been personal attacks. There have been no rebuttals, no responses to the substance of my arguments. Just insults. One person even said I was right—and then launched into a character attack, apparently not bright enough to realize they were making my point for me….
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10 Real Questions to Ask the E.C. Sunday
The Electoral College of U.S. Grand Lodge plays a critical role in overseeing local bodies but rarely faces meaningful public scrutiny. This Sunday, July 27, at 2:30 pm at NOTOCON, they will host their “Meet and Greet” session—an event framed as an opportunity for dialogue, but which more often serves as transparency theater. Most attendees…
Your Decoder Ring for the O.T.O. Circus
Your Decoder Ring for the Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.) Circus NOTOCON and the Theater of Control Intro NOTOCON is this week. You’ve got your plane ticket.Your outfits picked out.Your hotel room’s booked.When all is said and done, you’ll have spent over a grand to be there. Maybe you’re looking forward to making new friends—or reconnecting…
You’re Not Paranoid. They Really Are Watching.
When I released They’re Watching You, my video on information control in O.T.O., I didn’t expect the flood of confirmation that followed. People—some still in the Order, others long gone—had eerily similar stories. Many had never spoken up before. Some thought they were imagining things. They weren’t. This post dives into one pattern I’ve since…
When Disagreement Becomes Disrespect: What Happened After I Criticized the DuQuettes
O.T.O. describes itself as a place of freedom. Members are told time and again that there are no established dogmas, no official theology of Thelema, and no fixed interpretation of the Gnostic Mass. We’re encouraged to think for ourselves, explore deeply, and engage in open inquiry. But in practice, that’s not how it works. Beneath…
They’re Watching You: Inside the Shadow World of OTO
They’re Watching You Inside the Shadow World of Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.) Disclaimer What follows is my personal experience and interpretation; others’ experiences may differ. These are the author’s opinions, offered for education and recovery support, not allegations of illegal conduct. Intro What happens when you ask questions in O.T.O.? What happens when you challenge…
The Loyalty Trap
I didn’t leave OTO because I stopped caring about it or the people in it. I left because my care was being used against me. For years, I believed loyalty and a commitment to personal growth meant staying in the room. I thought it meant working through conflict and being patient with the process. While…
OTO’s Governance by Gaslighting
OTO’s Governance by Gaslighting How ‘Reasonable’ People Enable Abuse in Spiritual Communities When we talk about harm in spiritual organizations, we usually imagine dramatic stories. The meltdowns. The public humiliations. The predators exposed. If you’ve seen The Vow or Going Clear, that’s the image: charismatic leaders and overt abuse. But that’s only part of the…
Control, Compliance, and Consequences: My 2019 Encounter with OTO Leadership
In my recent video, I shared the 2019 incident where Sabazius, the U.S. National Grand Master of OTO, pressured Joseph Thibes to remove IAO131 as a moderator of the Facebook Thelema group—and what happened when I spoke out. This wasn’t just drama. It was textbook BITE model behavior—a framework used to identify high-control groups: Behavior…
Speak Up, Get CRUSHED: How OTO Handles Dissent
Speak Up, Get Crushed How Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.) Handles Dissent Healthy leadership standards in spiritual communities are a matter of public interest. My goal is to spark constructive reform and protect current and future members of OTO. Everything in this video is my opinion, based on first‐hand observations, public statements, and written records I…